whoo hoo. four and half monthes. now thats a hiatus.
well i'm in the last two hours of my little holiday here on top of a hill in chilliwack.
i brought with me a mild list of things that i thought
oh absolutly i'll have time to finally get done.
mend two pairs of jeans
mend a fabulous bra that i havn't worn due to a little pokey pokey
swim frequently and without modesty
get further dug into the stalin biography.
wear socks. because i packed socks, i figured therefor i should wear some.
so in all acutality here is what got accomplished
all but a few chapters got read regarding ole stalin
swimming one time, and with all sorts of modesty.
sun. burn.
cover to cover of a cheesy assed christian romance novel.
polished off 'til we have faces' by cs lewis. one more book back to matt good.
diet coke consumption enough to quench a small nation.
coronation of smoothie queen.
i leave with phil and corrina in a few hours back into the city,
very well relaxed ,
very well laundered
and blessed, incredibly graciously, to have been able to spend a week at the vacant blundell residence.
with a car to get my lazy ass up and down the hill.
tommorow morning is back to the grind
with excitment
and a good smattering of apprehension regarding the insanity of three kids, four and under returning from a week holiday.
and also, as usual, mild concern for money until next paycheque.
jesus please let my gst cheque be there when i get home. amen.
Thursday, March 01, 2007
i gush therefor i post.
i have incredible friends. incredible.
while at work today,
the incomparable sandra cosby came in to my abode
and blew through as only one who is so incomparable could do.
i hardly know what to tell of first,
not wanting to order the magnamaty of all she has done.
the girl cleaned.
she. scrubbed. my. kitchen. floor.
which if you know me, will make you realize i'm the most undeserving lout that ever was.
she cleaned my bathroom, my bedroom.
she cleaned every part of soul i tell you.
she organized.
and all this under the banner of redecorating.
all the gross, accumilated furniture, i found propped in the back ally.
and a new spacious, mod apartment awaited inside.
with new furniture and accesories to boot.
i could in depth detail you each crevice of my home,
but the place i'm most elated and excited about is my bedroom.
I HAVE A REAL, ADULT BEDROOM.
with sidetables, and little lamps, and a lovely, long book case with books and frames.
oh man. its so complete, and it astoundingly makes me hate the colour of my room less.
i have amazing people in my life.
gush gush gush.
i have incredible friends. incredible.
while at work today,
the incomparable sandra cosby came in to my abode
and blew through as only one who is so incomparable could do.
i hardly know what to tell of first,
not wanting to order the magnamaty of all she has done.
the girl cleaned.
she. scrubbed. my. kitchen. floor.
which if you know me, will make you realize i'm the most undeserving lout that ever was.
she cleaned my bathroom, my bedroom.
she cleaned every part of soul i tell you.
she organized.
and all this under the banner of redecorating.
all the gross, accumilated furniture, i found propped in the back ally.
and a new spacious, mod apartment awaited inside.
with new furniture and accesories to boot.
i could in depth detail you each crevice of my home,
but the place i'm most elated and excited about is my bedroom.
I HAVE A REAL, ADULT BEDROOM.
with sidetables, and little lamps, and a lovely, long book case with books and frames.
oh man. its so complete, and it astoundingly makes me hate the colour of my room less.
i have amazing people in my life.
gush gush gush.
Sunday, February 18, 2007
an opening to this post will be a thank you to matt and sandra who gave me their old 'newlywed special' ikea couch, which, upon introduction to the floorplan, has created my favorite spot to rest that beyond my body.
my music is on shuffle right now, and bruce cockburn's 'all the diamonds' has begun, and it feels perfect.
my weekend has is now ending on a small, but good note.
alone in my space, spacious and dim.
cherished because of the sparsity in place of the usual abundance.
two very full days of good and fun moments. but full of everyone else as well.
i've read some really great things in the last two hours,
which has me thinking and reflecting.
ben said once 'introspection is pride's worst enemy'
and, as now,
i come back to that thought often.
today my grandma, in all her straightlaced mennonite glory, started spinning me a tale about a new breed of poinsettia plants that are purple and glittery.
this upon my exclimation of surprise at said poinsettia, resting in an air of defiance, dead center on the kitchen table.
knowing her story was becoming mildly implausible, she gave it up and admitted buying it beacause it looked cool.
my music is on shuffle right now, and bruce cockburn's 'all the diamonds' has begun, and it feels perfect.
my weekend has is now ending on a small, but good note.
alone in my space, spacious and dim.
cherished because of the sparsity in place of the usual abundance.
two very full days of good and fun moments. but full of everyone else as well.
i've read some really great things in the last two hours,
which has me thinking and reflecting.
ben said once 'introspection is pride's worst enemy'
and, as now,
i come back to that thought often.
today my grandma, in all her straightlaced mennonite glory, started spinning me a tale about a new breed of poinsettia plants that are purple and glittery.
this upon my exclimation of surprise at said poinsettia, resting in an air of defiance, dead center on the kitchen table.
knowing her story was becoming mildly implausible, she gave it up and admitted buying it beacause it looked cool.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
ok kids, 31-60. when the did the first bit, i promised 61-100, forgetting altogether about 31-60.
well, as mathmatically disinclined i may be, i was not to leave them out forever. thanks to ye who pointed it out.
31. i will always spend my last 15 dollars on all you can eat sushi.
32. my house in heaven will have a cheese... farm?
33. my new favorite cracker is black sesame and nori with rock salt.
34. this is becoming quite food centric.
35. the best place for take away dessert in the city, is capers. so good, SO cheap.
36. i own four pairs of jeans that wear, and many more that i bought before i knew how to buy jeans.
37. my new work-laundry philosophy is: one small load day is waaay better than five at once out of desparation.
38. i sometimes cheer, in my head, for the bus to drive off when someone is running desperately to catch it.
39. there could be kitchen cleanliness 'big brother', and it still wouldn't matter.
40. i've read pride and prejudice nine times.
41. i've read harry potters, cumulativly more than that.
42. somewhere in my apartment building someone is playing bongos. rock on.
43. i go through about 4 pairs of sunglasses a summer. i lose them like crazy.
44. i commute with my bike in the summer. i enjoy the svelt look it gives me.
45. i have to take my bike to 'our community bikes' before summer.
46. my bike has many maladies, because it is both prone, and unlucky to have a mildly destructive caregiver.
47. i was born at 6:11 am. march 3rd.
48. i'm listening to fake plastic trees by radiohead.
49. i have both a boy name and a girl name picked out for future kids.
50. i haven't bought a cd in a while, but the last one i bought was the new wailin jennies.
51. the best cd to dance to with a one, a two and three year old is (apart from the wiggles, bless them) is pheonix's its never been like that. rock on.
52. the wiggles are a daily huge debate at work. the two year old loves them, the three year old hates them. and each are equally strongly opinionated. one time the three year old, out of nowhere, asked if they could watch a wiggles video. the two year looked at me with utter amazment and euphoria as to say "this is the best day of my life. i didn't know life could be like this".
53. when i get home, the internet is the first thing i hit, unless i have wine in the house.
54. the websites i check are usually daily and in this order:
hotmail, gmail, people.com, perezhilton, myspace, dooce.com, cnn.com
55. my favorite movie is good will hunting. i can watch it over and again. but i cannot, for even a minute watch it if its playing on tv. there is so much dubbing and ommisions, that i get angry.
56. my favorite scene in said movie is where robin williams gives the speech to matt damon in the park on their second meeting. and the camera doesn't leave robin williams for the whole of it. towards the end, it just slowly pans back to include matt damon. brilliant. and its such a great speech. nice work affleck. damon. van sant.
57. i will go the theatre regardless to see a film by danny boyle, or alfonso cuaron.
58. my bosses have offered to fly me out to ontario for a mini break in april or may. bless them and their abundance of air miles.
59. my two favorite magazines are real simple and vogue.
60. my luxury item on survivor would totally be q-tips.
well, as mathmatically disinclined i may be, i was not to leave them out forever. thanks to ye who pointed it out.
31. i will always spend my last 15 dollars on all you can eat sushi.
32. my house in heaven will have a cheese... farm?
33. my new favorite cracker is black sesame and nori with rock salt.
34. this is becoming quite food centric.
35. the best place for take away dessert in the city, is capers. so good, SO cheap.
36. i own four pairs of jeans that wear, and many more that i bought before i knew how to buy jeans.
37. my new work-laundry philosophy is: one small load day is waaay better than five at once out of desparation.
38. i sometimes cheer, in my head, for the bus to drive off when someone is running desperately to catch it.
39. there could be kitchen cleanliness 'big brother', and it still wouldn't matter.
40. i've read pride and prejudice nine times.
41. i've read harry potters, cumulativly more than that.
42. somewhere in my apartment building someone is playing bongos. rock on.
43. i go through about 4 pairs of sunglasses a summer. i lose them like crazy.
44. i commute with my bike in the summer. i enjoy the svelt look it gives me.
45. i have to take my bike to 'our community bikes' before summer.
46. my bike has many maladies, because it is both prone, and unlucky to have a mildly destructive caregiver.
47. i was born at 6:11 am. march 3rd.
48. i'm listening to fake plastic trees by radiohead.
49. i have both a boy name and a girl name picked out for future kids.
50. i haven't bought a cd in a while, but the last one i bought was the new wailin jennies.
51. the best cd to dance to with a one, a two and three year old is (apart from the wiggles, bless them) is pheonix's its never been like that. rock on.
52. the wiggles are a daily huge debate at work. the two year old loves them, the three year old hates them. and each are equally strongly opinionated. one time the three year old, out of nowhere, asked if they could watch a wiggles video. the two year looked at me with utter amazment and euphoria as to say "this is the best day of my life. i didn't know life could be like this".
53. when i get home, the internet is the first thing i hit, unless i have wine in the house.
54. the websites i check are usually daily and in this order:
hotmail, gmail, people.com, perezhilton, myspace, dooce.com, cnn.com
55. my favorite movie is good will hunting. i can watch it over and again. but i cannot, for even a minute watch it if its playing on tv. there is so much dubbing and ommisions, that i get angry.
56. my favorite scene in said movie is where robin williams gives the speech to matt damon in the park on their second meeting. and the camera doesn't leave robin williams for the whole of it. towards the end, it just slowly pans back to include matt damon. brilliant. and its such a great speech. nice work affleck. damon. van sant.
57. i will go the theatre regardless to see a film by danny boyle, or alfonso cuaron.
58. my bosses have offered to fly me out to ontario for a mini break in april or may. bless them and their abundance of air miles.
59. my two favorite magazines are real simple and vogue.
60. my luxury item on survivor would totally be q-tips.
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
100 things is something that i've been seeing around here and there on the blogs.
lying in bed with a bit of boredom and elusive sleep, i've decided to give it a whirl. but i could only go as far as 30. so 60-100 will be brought to you at a later date.
1. i hate reading novels written in the first person
2. unless its an autobiographical.
3. i guess then, its not a novel.
4. i hate singing with more than one other person in a band.
5. i am listening to sufjan stevens.
6. sufjan dominates my itunes. with seven albums and somewhere around 20 songs each...
7. my dream esemble cast would include: julianna nicholson, samantha morton, emma thompson, natalie portman, maggie gyllennhaal.
8. i don't like owning movies, but the only ones i do own, i'm embarrassed to own.
9. i get movies as gifts.
10. i enjoy the cigarettes on weekends.
11. diet pepsi rules my roost.
12. it pains me to wear a tshirt.
13. the only reason i have experience fine dining is because of courtenay, a chef at nu.
14. courtenay is my best buddy. she will bring you diet pepsi and a pizza when your addictions have run you dry.
15. canta gallo at jj bean is the best blend of coffee of all time. my boss bought me a pound if it at work and i drink way more than i ever did before.
16. i am a pro star at dressing 1 year olds to kill.
17. i only own two towels.
18. i hate socks that arn't fully cotton.
19. i hate sweaty feet.
20. i hate cold feet. especially in bed. yeeegad.
21. i accidently painted my bedroom a horrendus color. acidic pastel yellow.
22. i've had a craving this last two weeks to paint my living room teal.
23. i have had three cars given to me.
24. i dont know why, i am a horrible car person.
25. i'm hoping to soon become a superb and wonderful scoter person.
26. i have a crush on a boy.
27. there are some mom blogs that i like reading.
28. i am not a mom.
29. i am the lynchpin of the modern family.
30. benefit benetint is the best beauty product known to woman.
lying in bed with a bit of boredom and elusive sleep, i've decided to give it a whirl. but i could only go as far as 30. so 60-100 will be brought to you at a later date.
1. i hate reading novels written in the first person
2. unless its an autobiographical.
3. i guess then, its not a novel.
4. i hate singing with more than one other person in a band.
5. i am listening to sufjan stevens.
6. sufjan dominates my itunes. with seven albums and somewhere around 20 songs each...
7. my dream esemble cast would include: julianna nicholson, samantha morton, emma thompson, natalie portman, maggie gyllennhaal.
8. i don't like owning movies, but the only ones i do own, i'm embarrassed to own.
9. i get movies as gifts.
10. i enjoy the cigarettes on weekends.
11. diet pepsi rules my roost.
12. it pains me to wear a tshirt.
13. the only reason i have experience fine dining is because of courtenay, a chef at nu.
14. courtenay is my best buddy. she will bring you diet pepsi and a pizza when your addictions have run you dry.
15. canta gallo at jj bean is the best blend of coffee of all time. my boss bought me a pound if it at work and i drink way more than i ever did before.
16. i am a pro star at dressing 1 year olds to kill.
17. i only own two towels.
18. i hate socks that arn't fully cotton.
19. i hate sweaty feet.
20. i hate cold feet. especially in bed. yeeegad.
21. i accidently painted my bedroom a horrendus color. acidic pastel yellow.
22. i've had a craving this last two weeks to paint my living room teal.
23. i have had three cars given to me.
24. i dont know why, i am a horrible car person.
25. i'm hoping to soon become a superb and wonderful scoter person.
26. i have a crush on a boy.
27. there are some mom blogs that i like reading.
28. i am not a mom.
29. i am the lynchpin of the modern family.
30. benefit benetint is the best beauty product known to woman.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
lord have mercy!
its been too long.
and now i sit here stumped over what to say.
whats wrong with my mind?
can i think of nothing to ponder over in eloquent vocabulary as to entice you into thinking i'm the lovliest girl alive?
i'm reading pride and predjudice again.
i'm so caught up in the halting, unsure manner in which both elizabeth and darcy dance around, and into, their affections.
today on the bus i read the passage where in elizabeth ponders over her pride for darcy
in regards to his particpation in the lydia/wickam marriage,
and elizabeth realizing the true nature of her own feelings.
i'm in love with that idea: falling in love outside of the common practice of
1. meeting
2. dating.
that love should come from an accumulation of character & personality facets,
and the interacting and conversing within those,
as opposed to knowledge gained within a created bias,
based on swoony gazes.
and on closer examination of myself,
i fully realize
how apart from that reality
i tend to operate.
exceptions of course,
but i'm all for the swoony bias'.
they're fun.
and they're good at running their course.
but oh, give me that sure, undeniable knowledge and assurance,
which births
elizabeth's love for darcy.
its been too long.
and now i sit here stumped over what to say.
whats wrong with my mind?
can i think of nothing to ponder over in eloquent vocabulary as to entice you into thinking i'm the lovliest girl alive?
i'm reading pride and predjudice again.
i'm so caught up in the halting, unsure manner in which both elizabeth and darcy dance around, and into, their affections.
today on the bus i read the passage where in elizabeth ponders over her pride for darcy
in regards to his particpation in the lydia/wickam marriage,
and elizabeth realizing the true nature of her own feelings.
i'm in love with that idea: falling in love outside of the common practice of
1. meeting
2. dating.
that love should come from an accumulation of character & personality facets,
and the interacting and conversing within those,
as opposed to knowledge gained within a created bias,
based on swoony gazes.
and on closer examination of myself,
i fully realize
how apart from that reality
i tend to operate.
exceptions of course,
but i'm all for the swoony bias'.
they're fun.
and they're good at running their course.
but oh, give me that sure, undeniable knowledge and assurance,
which births
elizabeth's love for darcy.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
my friend sandra walked into my apartment a week ago
joking about the perpetual squalor in which i live
"didn't you go to councilling to deal with this?"
in jest, knowing my councilling outcomes far more than most.
and it stuck in my head,
beacause it was funny.
and then this weekend, with the culmination of tonight,
in dealing with an urgent, negative chunk of life,
thinking
god, how am i still here?
how do i keep letting this stuff become so massive and all encompassing?
but in dealing with this latest life vomit,
i can see myself taking better steps
saying better things with faster responce times..
and then back to sandra's comment too,
the squalor, the severe financial instabiliity,
these things that i hate about myself,
used to drive me to dwell.
but a little investment in introspection
has bought perspective.
and perspective says
julie julie. you little learner you. nice work on dealing with this one.
it also says some lovely little cheesy things.
joking about the perpetual squalor in which i live
"didn't you go to councilling to deal with this?"
in jest, knowing my councilling outcomes far more than most.
and it stuck in my head,
beacause it was funny.
and then this weekend, with the culmination of tonight,
in dealing with an urgent, negative chunk of life,
thinking
god, how am i still here?
how do i keep letting this stuff become so massive and all encompassing?
but in dealing with this latest life vomit,
i can see myself taking better steps
saying better things with faster responce times..
and then back to sandra's comment too,
the squalor, the severe financial instabiliity,
these things that i hate about myself,
used to drive me to dwell.
but a little investment in introspection
has bought perspective.
and perspective says
julie julie. you little learner you. nice work on dealing with this one.
it also says some lovely little cheesy things.
Friday, November 24, 2006
Monday, November 20, 2006
tonight i learned about something that has made me laugh and laugh.
not that laughing at a tragedy is anything to be deemed appropriate..
but its called
the boston mollases massacre of 1919.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Boston_Molasses_Disaster
a friend is hosting a memorial party come january
(massachusets mollases massacre memorial)
wherein we remember,
with the creation and consumption of all things mollases.
bakes beans, pancakes, those cookies my mom used to make, whisky. you know.
so, although work will get me out of bed in five hours,
this item needed to be told.
actually molasses might be just a by-product of the making of whisky.
maybe i can let you know.
not that laughing at a tragedy is anything to be deemed appropriate..
but its called
the boston mollases massacre of 1919.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Boston_Molasses_Disaster
a friend is hosting a memorial party come january
(massachusets mollases massacre memorial)
wherein we remember,
with the creation and consumption of all things mollases.
bakes beans, pancakes, those cookies my mom used to make, whisky. you know.
so, although work will get me out of bed in five hours,
this item needed to be told.
actually molasses might be just a by-product of the making of whisky.
maybe i can let you know.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
its nearly 2am lying here writing this.
i got in about an hour ago, from the theatre
seeing 'stranger than fiction' and 'little children'
both great,
but the former had me smiling and smiling.
the latter i loved, although i think i may have been a bit too tired to fully engage.
it'd already been a long day,
starting earlier than usual, in order to cover a few breakfast meetings.
and the kicker is, i'm to be up in a few short hours to meet my sister in langly as to head across the border.
i love me a little target therapy.
john junior bean will be supplementing the lost sleep, i assure you.
this afternoon my three year old picked a nickel off the ground,
and promptly turned and handed it to me,
with the words,
"this is for you because you are my best breakfast maker".
the two of them've been calling the littlest ming ming.
now this little thing has been through the gammot of nicknames in her short 10 month run of life.
but ming ming is especially endearing to me because
the addressing of her in this manner, is usually followed with some sort musical dialouge.
'ming ming, you cannot eat the dog food'
(i just realized as i was typing that you cannot hear the melody that i was typing it out to).
here are some the past references. each having the span of 1 week-3 weeks.
bugaboo
buga
buGGA
bung-ga
yaya
baby
frank
mushaboom
shoop shoop/loop loop
sister (as in SISTER! you cannot play with my trains!!!)
banana
strawberry
adieu.
i have overtired heartburn.
actually i've had heartburn for the last few days non stop.
damn the genetics.
i got in about an hour ago, from the theatre
seeing 'stranger than fiction' and 'little children'
both great,
but the former had me smiling and smiling.
the latter i loved, although i think i may have been a bit too tired to fully engage.
it'd already been a long day,
starting earlier than usual, in order to cover a few breakfast meetings.
and the kicker is, i'm to be up in a few short hours to meet my sister in langly as to head across the border.
i love me a little target therapy.
john junior bean will be supplementing the lost sleep, i assure you.
this afternoon my three year old picked a nickel off the ground,
and promptly turned and handed it to me,
with the words,
"this is for you because you are my best breakfast maker".
the two of them've been calling the littlest ming ming.
now this little thing has been through the gammot of nicknames in her short 10 month run of life.
but ming ming is especially endearing to me because
the addressing of her in this manner, is usually followed with some sort musical dialouge.
'ming ming, you cannot eat the dog food'
(i just realized as i was typing that you cannot hear the melody that i was typing it out to).
here are some the past references. each having the span of 1 week-3 weeks.
bugaboo
buga
buGGA
bung-ga
yaya
baby
frank
mushaboom
shoop shoop/loop loop
sister (as in SISTER! you cannot play with my trains!!!)
banana
strawberry
adieu.
i have overtired heartburn.
actually i've had heartburn for the last few days non stop.
damn the genetics.
Sunday, November 05, 2006
i had a bit of a royal themed cinematic afternoon.
i saw both marie antionette and the queen,
both which i duley reccomend.
i attempted to find a rental of anna karenina at my local happy bats,
to no avail.
a certain 1967 version is coming out on tuesday however.
when i got home and IMDb'd it, i was suprised to see so many makes of this classic story.
the one i had been thinking of was filmed in 1997 starring sophie marceau.
i'm having a bit of a half assed nightmare with bedroom redecoration.
all the following things have proven to be banes.
getting down the mini blinds. was shocked to figure out how easy it acutally was.
screwing in the new drapery bracket. its not drywall, its not gyprock and the studs are out to left field. my number 2 philips is failing me.
screwing in a hanging lamp hook into the ceiling.
the paint job. the ideal has turned out to be a horrific, neon, acidic version, of the lovely pastel muted color i had in mind.
and also i'd like to strip the wood floors. but i mean, its a rental, is it really worth it?
tommorow liza and i have appointments at barbarella for long awaited and desperatly overdue hair cuts.
oh goody.
i saw both marie antionette and the queen,
both which i duley reccomend.
i attempted to find a rental of anna karenina at my local happy bats,
to no avail.
a certain 1967 version is coming out on tuesday however.
when i got home and IMDb'd it, i was suprised to see so many makes of this classic story.
the one i had been thinking of was filmed in 1997 starring sophie marceau.
i'm having a bit of a half assed nightmare with bedroom redecoration.
all the following things have proven to be banes.
getting down the mini blinds. was shocked to figure out how easy it acutally was.
screwing in the new drapery bracket. its not drywall, its not gyprock and the studs are out to left field. my number 2 philips is failing me.
screwing in a hanging lamp hook into the ceiling.
the paint job. the ideal has turned out to be a horrific, neon, acidic version, of the lovely pastel muted color i had in mind.
and also i'd like to strip the wood floors. but i mean, its a rental, is it really worth it?
tommorow liza and i have appointments at barbarella for long awaited and desperatly overdue hair cuts.
oh goody.
Sunday, October 29, 2006
i've learned that pieces hate the obvious.
sunday night. with a good weekend behind me now.
friday after work, i transitted out to surrey to meet stephen.
then out to chilliwack for show with the rest of badgentina (watch that hard g there).
the whole thing was a bit of a gong show..
but we stayed out late, ate out late, got into the city late.
saturday, only a few short hours later, coffees firmly in hand,
we drove downtown for the buffy singalong.
how fun it is amongst a community of 200 with the same appreciation.
we were surprised by the large contingent of normal people, as opposed to past years.
thai food, mosaic, gigi's pizza.
i was outside for a moment at mosaic, and matty came down to join me.
matty has endeared himself to me.
i'm not sure of whats all going on for him,
some pretty serious mental things, as a banner.
walking outside he sees me,
"bella. what are you doing with that evil cigarette in your hand"
and pulls one out to light, with a smile.
i smiled and felt love of god.
i bought the new be good tanya's cd.
but i have not listened to it yet.
i'll let you know.
sunday night. with a good weekend behind me now.
friday after work, i transitted out to surrey to meet stephen.
then out to chilliwack for show with the rest of badgentina (watch that hard g there).
the whole thing was a bit of a gong show..
but we stayed out late, ate out late, got into the city late.
saturday, only a few short hours later, coffees firmly in hand,
we drove downtown for the buffy singalong.
how fun it is amongst a community of 200 with the same appreciation.
we were surprised by the large contingent of normal people, as opposed to past years.
thai food, mosaic, gigi's pizza.
i was outside for a moment at mosaic, and matty came down to join me.
matty has endeared himself to me.
i'm not sure of whats all going on for him,
some pretty serious mental things, as a banner.
walking outside he sees me,
"bella. what are you doing with that evil cigarette in your hand"
and pulls one out to light, with a smile.
i smiled and felt love of god.
i bought the new be good tanya's cd.
but i have not listened to it yet.
i'll let you know.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
"Dolly Parton is like this beacon of peace in the world
because people who hate each other love Dolly Parton.
Rednecks love Dolly Parton.
Gay people love Dolly Parton,
but they might hate each other.
So I think Dolly Parton is like this really nice point of light
where people can converge and enjoy her
and it's a pretty magical thing that she has managed to do."
greg walloch
because people who hate each other love Dolly Parton.
Rednecks love Dolly Parton.
Gay people love Dolly Parton,
but they might hate each other.
So I think Dolly Parton is like this really nice point of light
where people can converge and enjoy her
and it's a pretty magical thing that she has managed to do."
greg walloch
Monday, October 02, 2006
"If the too obvious, too straight branches of Truth and Good
are crushed or amputated
and cannot reach the light,"
then "perhaps the whimsical, unpredictable,
and unexpected branches of Beauty
will make their way through and soar up to that very place
and in this way perform the work of all three."
Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn
are crushed or amputated
and cannot reach the light,"
then "perhaps the whimsical, unpredictable,
and unexpected branches of Beauty
will make their way through and soar up to that very place
and in this way perform the work of all three."
Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
just got in from a totally classic julie and stephen outing.
including all the following fundementals.
we put the fun in fundemental.
or the mental..
shitty food past any appropriate digesting hour.
happy bats cinema.
buffy. we have purchased our tickets for the singalong.
aside. the buffy the vampire singalong is an annual event here in vancouver.
doning costumes and finery,
the musical episode entilted 'once more with feeling' is aired.
singing along is mandatory.
also aired are a few other choice episodes.
so, october 28th, where will you be?
a major discussion on the poorly chosen apparel of a random pedestrian. fundemental you ask? sadly yes. this happens more oftan than one might like to admit.
a major oversight in evening plans.
a bicycle tucked neatly into the back of stephens van.
and lastly, some choice phrases uttered in unison
that i shan't copy out here.
tommorow is my 'friday'
flying to edmonton on real friday morning.
including all the following fundementals.
we put the fun in fundemental.
or the mental..
shitty food past any appropriate digesting hour.
happy bats cinema.
buffy. we have purchased our tickets for the singalong.
aside. the buffy the vampire singalong is an annual event here in vancouver.
doning costumes and finery,
the musical episode entilted 'once more with feeling' is aired.
singing along is mandatory.
also aired are a few other choice episodes.
so, october 28th, where will you be?
a major discussion on the poorly chosen apparel of a random pedestrian. fundemental you ask? sadly yes. this happens more oftan than one might like to admit.
a major oversight in evening plans.
a bicycle tucked neatly into the back of stephens van.
and lastly, some choice phrases uttered in unison
that i shan't copy out here.
tommorow is my 'friday'
flying to edmonton on real friday morning.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
oh right its sunday night.
i guess since i'm just flopping here..
i'm TIRED.
today was a full day.
today was also rainy and full of decent sized walks.
walk number one. my house to the church for a meeting at one.
walk number two. church to the art gallery for a darfur thing.
which i'll aside here for a moment.
after rawanda we said 'never again'.
well hell, we need to make sure that never again means something.
darfur is insanely on the brink of genocide,
and its nearly the same situation UN wise, an unwillingness to step in.
and because of the unsafety, very few relief organiztions are going in.
come on canadian government. come on UN.
little fact. 648 letters to the government, i think last year, produced 400 million dollars for humantarian work abroad?
http://www.amnesty.ca/themes/sudan_darfur_conflict.php
ok walk number three. home from gallery.
walk number four. out of my apartment to the courtenay's car. then we drove over to the church space for a fest of a show which i'll be completely happy to never see again. aqua teen hunger force. kick me in the head.
also virginia native josh, made his famous tater tot casserole.
tater tots, cheese, mushroom soup and ground beef. i'm guessing regular, not lean.
back to the grind tommorow. i'm in decent countdown mode now, until my flight one province right.
one week this friday.
edmonton for about 18 hours, and then an excellent road trip one more province right, and into REGINA!!
gerrards and tylers unite.
i havn't had froot loops in, i'm sure, years.
but my mind just formed a perfect, mirage-like spoonful of them.
goodnight.
i guess since i'm just flopping here..
i'm TIRED.
today was a full day.
today was also rainy and full of decent sized walks.
walk number one. my house to the church for a meeting at one.
walk number two. church to the art gallery for a darfur thing.
which i'll aside here for a moment.
after rawanda we said 'never again'.
well hell, we need to make sure that never again means something.
darfur is insanely on the brink of genocide,
and its nearly the same situation UN wise, an unwillingness to step in.
and because of the unsafety, very few relief organiztions are going in.
come on canadian government. come on UN.
little fact. 648 letters to the government, i think last year, produced 400 million dollars for humantarian work abroad?
http://www.amnesty.ca/themes/sudan_darfur_conflict.php
ok walk number three. home from gallery.
walk number four. out of my apartment to the courtenay's car. then we drove over to the church space for a fest of a show which i'll be completely happy to never see again. aqua teen hunger force. kick me in the head.
also virginia native josh, made his famous tater tot casserole.
tater tots, cheese, mushroom soup and ground beef. i'm guessing regular, not lean.
back to the grind tommorow. i'm in decent countdown mode now, until my flight one province right.
one week this friday.
edmonton for about 18 hours, and then an excellent road trip one more province right, and into REGINA!!
gerrards and tylers unite.
i havn't had froot loops in, i'm sure, years.
but my mind just formed a perfect, mirage-like spoonful of them.
goodnight.
Sunday, September 10, 2006
i'm taking that last one off,
really intresting, just a lot of words.
and hello. its 7.38 on sunday morning.
what the fuck
i would normally say.
but i'm just about off to the shower,
and then heading out to coquitlam
in a borrowed car.
to be there by nine oclock.
but right now its 7.39
and i have mild heartburn,
and greasy hair
and nearly no will to do anything about it.
my only beacon right now
is that coffee a few blocks away.
really intresting, just a lot of words.
and hello. its 7.38 on sunday morning.
what the fuck
i would normally say.
but i'm just about off to the shower,
and then heading out to coquitlam
in a borrowed car.
to be there by nine oclock.
but right now its 7.39
and i have mild heartburn,
and greasy hair
and nearly no will to do anything about it.
my only beacon right now
is that coffee a few blocks away.
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
i'd like to break up the mid week monotony
with a beautiful little song that i found tonight
and havn't stopped listening.
and its by the most beautiful girl
whom i havn't seen in a few years.
hmm since i cannot figure how to bring the song to you,
please go to the song.
its posted on (my) myspace
please click on the right hand link.
its so lovely.
with a beautiful little song that i found tonight
and havn't stopped listening.
and its by the most beautiful girl
whom i havn't seen in a few years.
hmm since i cannot figure how to bring the song to you,
please go to the song.
its posted on (my) myspace
please click on the right hand link.
its so lovely.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
i feel burdened to this whole sunday night recap commitment.
especially so when i feel i have nothing to recap.
in my last post i mentioned my waning energy levels,
which really dictated my weekend i fear.
loads of sleeping in,
quite a bit of solitary red wine and smokes,
a viewing for the forth time of angelina jolie on inside the actors studio,
and i think which will now lead me to give forth my own answers to the bernard pivot questionaire.
What is your favorite word? plethora. incomparable
What is your least favorite word? quiver
What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally? a perception of genuine
What turns you off? a perception of putting on airs..
What is your favorite curse word? fuck.
What sound or noise do you love? the sound of barefeet padding on smooth cement.
What sound or noise do you hate? open mouthed chewing.
What profession other than your own would you like to attempt? acting
What profession would you not like to do? doctor.
If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates? no words. a smile, some tears and hug would be lovely.
especially so when i feel i have nothing to recap.
in my last post i mentioned my waning energy levels,
which really dictated my weekend i fear.
loads of sleeping in,
quite a bit of solitary red wine and smokes,
a viewing for the forth time of angelina jolie on inside the actors studio,
and i think which will now lead me to give forth my own answers to the bernard pivot questionaire.
What is your favorite word? plethora. incomparable
What is your least favorite word? quiver
What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally? a perception of genuine
What turns you off? a perception of putting on airs..
What is your favorite curse word? fuck.
What sound or noise do you love? the sound of barefeet padding on smooth cement.
What sound or noise do you hate? open mouthed chewing.
What profession other than your own would you like to attempt? acting
What profession would you not like to do? doctor.
If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates? no words. a smile, some tears and hug would be lovely.
Thursday, August 24, 2006
i've had crap energy this week.
i'm lying here on my stomach
at 845 and i'm exausted.
i had plans to meet up with some friends,
but it felt good to bail.
if only it means i can stay here in my dark room
and maybe read some more anna karenina.
i've been a tolstoy virgin until now.
i came across this old copy of it at my parents house,
and what started as 'giving it a go',
is now a full fledged engrossment.
i'm holding very dearly to the fact that tommorow is friday.
i've rediscovered peanut butter and jelly
on wonderbread, as an adult.
running around/ bounding up and down stairs after three chillins all day
is a great way to not eat.
and come a moment of pause,
the most attractive thing in the world to me
is a pbj.
i'm lying here on my stomach
at 845 and i'm exausted.
i had plans to meet up with some friends,
but it felt good to bail.
if only it means i can stay here in my dark room
and maybe read some more anna karenina.
i've been a tolstoy virgin until now.
i came across this old copy of it at my parents house,
and what started as 'giving it a go',
is now a full fledged engrossment.
i'm holding very dearly to the fact that tommorow is friday.
i've rediscovered peanut butter and jelly
on wonderbread, as an adult.
running around/ bounding up and down stairs after three chillins all day
is a great way to not eat.
and come a moment of pause,
the most attractive thing in the world to me
is a pbj.
