a lady just called my house
she dialed 604 instead of 406 (area code)
she wanted to talk to her sister
he sister's name is julie
she went on and on and giggled about how funny this was.
it was all i could do
not to yell
"ok!! i get it!! i'm julie too!!!"

i've been reading alot, coming across a lot of things that are adament about living for today..whats next week? you've got today.
we lack peace.

he can't plan the end
without planning the means.
huh.
i know that there is more in my head about this
but it doesn't have a medium.

parking lots are free from any sort of class or race discrimination.
totally pending on what second you drive into the parking lot,
and who decides to stop shopping when..
thats what determines what spot you get.
one seconds difference can say whether you get the spot next the entrance, or five miles off.
there's no way to reserve spaces, or to slip someone a 20 for them to hurry.
no jaquar or corvair can come along and say to the geo metro "excuse me. know your place. who the hell do you think you are?"
pure equality as found in very few other places in this world.

when i'm cold and alone
all i want is my freedom
and a sudden gust of gravity
i stop wailing and kicking
just to let this water cover me
only if i rest my arms, rest my mind
you'll overcome me and swell up around me
with my fighting so vain, with my vanity so fought
i'm rolling over
~cc

i ate all your gum..
but i put gas in your car.

i'm grouchy.

i am given good things
i am a good thing
my choice is
to take these good things and use/treat them wisely
and let them become part of my understanding of the giver
or
i can use these things in many selfish ways
and let them block me from my understanding.
my first instict is to the latter.
so i painted it out.

on my break today
sitting in my car
eating some subway
listening to some heavy heavy rain
letting the sun shine in.
thinking lots about pharisee's asking jesus what the greatest commandment was.
he says love god, love your neighbor as yourself.
what if its saying,
as you love yourself, love your neighbor...
as you learn to see yourself through the eyes of grace,
as you learn to love that person,
love your neighbor.
learn to see who they are through the eyes of grace as well.
i think that one would tend to think this diddy saying
as much as you love yourself, man, try and love someone else a little bit too. haha.

stupid trial contacts that are too weak.
ow my head.

a lonley day.
the best kind of day,
when needed.
a slight diversion from the solitude to sing willabywollaby with the muchkamino's.. over and over.
willabywollaby wabby, an elephant sat on abby, willabywollaby wommy, an elephant sat on mommy.
i saw xmen two. i loooved it. i looooved it.
the inconsistant placement of some lighting got ben all riled up =)
i've decided pretty definatly to accept the job at camp.
one decision down.
bring on the fall. bring. it. on.

he pushed me to the edge
and i was scared.
he pushed me to the very edge
and i was very scared.
he pushed me over the edge

and i flew.

(overheard)

by the light of the fire
that flickers
and settles
by the company of friends
who roast bannock
and laugh
a peace that passes all understanding
showed up
and lingered
and i thanked him for the beauty
that flickers and settles
and roasts bannock and laughs.