100 things is something that i've been seeing around here and there on the blogs.
lying in bed with a bit of boredom and elusive sleep, i've decided to give it a whirl. but i could only go as far as 30. so 60-100 will be brought to you at a later date.

1. i hate reading novels written in the first person
2. unless its an autobiographical.
3. i guess then, its not a novel.
4. i hate singing with more than one other person in a band.
5. i am listening to sufjan stevens.
6. sufjan dominates my itunes. with seven albums and somewhere around 20 songs each...
7. my dream esemble cast would include: julianna nicholson, samantha morton, emma thompson, natalie portman, maggie gyllennhaal.
8. i don't like owning movies, but the only ones i do own, i'm embarrassed to own.
9. i get movies as gifts.
10. i enjoy the cigarettes on weekends.
11. diet pepsi rules my roost.
12. it pains me to wear a tshirt.
13. the only reason i have experience fine dining is because of courtenay, a chef at nu.
14. courtenay is my best buddy. she will bring you diet pepsi and a pizza when your addictions have run you dry.
15. canta gallo at jj bean is the best blend of coffee of all time. my boss bought me a pound if it at work and i drink way more than i ever did before.
16. i am a pro star at dressing 1 year olds to kill.
17. i only own two towels.
18. i hate socks that arn't fully cotton.
19. i hate sweaty feet.
20. i hate cold feet. especially in bed. yeeegad.
21. i accidently painted my bedroom a horrendus color. acidic pastel yellow.
22. i've had a craving this last two weeks to paint my living room teal.
23. i have had three cars given to me.
24. i dont know why, i am a horrible car person.
25. i'm hoping to soon become a superb and wonderful scoter person.
26. i have a crush on a boy.
27. there are some mom blogs that i like reading.
28. i am not a mom.
29. i am the lynchpin of the modern family.
30. benefit benetint is the best beauty product known to woman.

lord have mercy!
its been too long.

and now i sit here stumped over what to say.
whats wrong with my mind?
can i think of nothing to ponder over in eloquent vocabulary as to entice you into thinking i'm the lovliest girl alive?

i'm reading pride and predjudice again.
i'm so caught up in the halting, unsure manner in which both elizabeth and darcy dance around, and into, their affections.
today on the bus i read the passage where in elizabeth ponders over her pride for darcy
in regards to his particpation in the lydia/wickam marriage,
and elizabeth realizing the true nature of her own feelings.

i'm in love with that idea: falling in love outside of the common practice of
1. meeting
2. dating.
that love should come from an accumulation of character & personality facets,
and the interacting and conversing within those,
as opposed to knowledge gained within a created bias,
based on swoony gazes.

and on closer examination of myself,
i fully realize
how apart from that reality
i tend to operate.
exceptions of course,
but i'm all for the swoony bias'.
they're fun.
and they're good at running their course.

but oh, give me that sure, undeniable knowledge and assurance,
which births
elizabeth's love for darcy.