so wet.
flip flops were obvioulsy foolish.
oh hindsight.

hung out with my gr 12 coolies.
we made cookies and watched 'blue crush'
minimal expectations, but it was pretty decent.
and because i have an aversion to noticing these things recently, pretty crazy camera work.

since i was now set in the mindset,
i drove some girls home to jack j.
that boy has the gift for a good beat.
and so now, if anyone asks,
i'd be all about moving to hawaii
become a little surfer girl. yeehaw.

so this week is coming along rather hectic...
my amazing friend heidi is putting on a wedding
for these kids who we met through some christmas stuff
decided they wanted to be married before the baby came
so thats this friday.
i'm the photographer.
heidi's gotten a caterer, a pastor (she married well), gifts, even a dress i think
i can't believe her. she's quite amazing.
all in the last 48 hours.

and here i am re learning the same things i thought i got a year ago...

pride is such an illusion.

save your body
save your hair
save your skin
don't go to saskachewan.

jesus being god
is the perfect picture of who god is.
jesus, being man
is the picture of perfect humanity.
to find him, to meditate on him
is to find god
and our own true selves.
~rich m

i once thought all these things were so very important
but now I consider them worthless
compared with the priceless gain of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord.
counting it all garbage, so that I may have Christ. philly 3.7/8

I am still not all I should be
but I am focusing all my energies on this one thing
forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead 3.13

and
for reasons unbeknownst (??!!) to me,
our house has become a breeding ground for those little microwavble pasta dishes.
and i have become their queen.

i went to toons.
and forgot my scarf.
my neck is going to fall OFF.

oh but i did get a pair of socks back.
thats so great.

i got home from work about 5. and have done NOTHING.
all bloody night.
scratch that, i threw in some laundry which made for some trips up and down the stairs.
i'm out of my mind numb right now.
i'm thinking that i'll take a shower because when you are cooling off from it,
its is the exact same process your body does when it goes to bed.
its tricky trickery.
but it will work and i will go to sleeeeeeeep.
tommorow i have children who will vie for my attention and patience.
i've got to figure out a way to get a hair cut.

two nights ago i made a platisine sculpture of the state of my heart. as per the objective of the group building game. i knew instantly that what i needed to make was a shell. nothing else occured to me even once. but when it came time to share what our creations meant- mine was the only was that wasn't cut and dry christian. someone even said "wow, thanks for being able to share that" and i thought, is it so deep? was i expected to create a sailboat, representing god being the wind and directing me where i should go blah blah? good grief- it seems to me that, generally, there is a lack of vulnerability. not that i'm poured out for all to see- i suck suck at being vulnerable (dargatz, love). but i guess its more obscure that i thought. everyone's got pat struggles to confess, but really, if you want to love and be loved, to know and be known really then we've gotta learn to put some of ourselves out there.

today i went to work with my hands smelling of dog.
its not that i don't wash my hands..
such a smell comes not easily off.

and not too many people lied blatently to me about no tax.
it worked well for me.

and now i'm off to view mighty mighty aragorn.
again.
i'll come back later and write some more, ok?
ok.

it is possible that that god says every morning, 'do it again!' to the sun; and every evening 'do it again!' to the moon. it may not be automatic nessesity that makes all daisies alike; it may be that god makes every daisy seperately but has never got tired of making them... the repitition in nature may not be a mere recurrence; it may be a theatrical encore". chesterton chesterton

"i was at a city wide youth rally, and one of the pastors at the meeting said "we need to tell these kids about jesus so that they'll stop getting pregnant, stop doing drugs, and doing all these things". and i thought "wow, we need to tell these kids about jesus beacuse jesus wants them to know about him. it has nothing to do with thier sexual conduct or with the management of their bodies and minds. it has only to do with god so desperatly wanting us to know that he loves us and that he incarnated himself-he became jesus- so that we can know that."
~rich m.

alright.
the other night i wrote a whole long thing about worship.
and then somehow it didn't get published and was lost FORever.
in my frustration i have not written again.
until now.


well this is going to be anticlimatic.

ha. there is nothing really that i want to say.
i think that burger king is a seriously overlooked eatery.
whoppers are AMAZING. jr. whoppers are only 99c. thats insane. so much goodness, for so little cashola.
listening right now to beth orton... ooooooo. so wonderful. check out god song.. and thinking about tommorow.
for those of you who love me, fear not, for i will be near you.. with a burned cd on hand containing this fab. tunes.
speaking of tunes.. toons.. tunes.. i wanta i wanta cd.
and some crazy.
unique only to apt. 905. hiiiii.
also my scarf...
could i please get my scarf?
the cream and gold one.
scarf?

watched a movie with buds.
thought about how i'm getting paid tommorow.
then i thought about how i owe most of it.
realizing that, all along there was a downside to taking a year off from school,
being eligible to pay back your student loan.
then i ate some chocolate.
not 20 pounds mind you,
but a nice combination of all the good things about chocolate bars. sidekick, i promote you.
i'm also wondering if celly has left for sk yet. either tonight or tommorow night.

ahem. happy new year.
probably the most overrated holiday.
and people start parties so freaking early, like 7 or something.. so you are completly obliged to party for five hours before the thing even happens.
plus i was the classic "worked all day, not enough sleep" julie, so i welcomed the slower/quieter pace of the sub-party in the kitchen. where there is spinach dip, there is good times.

banana banana banana. what do you do with a banana?

things recently have generally been condusive to my mellowed out state of being that has taken me this last week or so.
went to an a.maz.ing worship sat night. blessing, love and peace amongst chaos and distrust.
been to the house of the hepps. movies and bk and music repeat.
not great amounts of alone.. thats kinda catching me, but i've got a day or two off now. we're good.